Ever feel like someone was trying to put you in a square or round hole- After many tries, they get so frustrated and they lay the block (you) to the side- Soon there is of pile of what they call mismatched blocks, if they aren’t round, square or a good color they are thought to be un useful, discarded feeling like they don’t belong because they are different- Soon all the discarded blocks come together to make a kaleidoscope ever changing colors and shapes- Always new to the next person who peers through the hole of life-
(c) 2009 Kimber Michaela I’m a deep plum octagon shape block because there are many sides to me some I haven’t discovered yet!
Make you whole like you had never been broken- I see the scars and pain both emotional and physical that you try to hide from everyone- You feel like it was your fault, you did something wrong, that is what they all told you- But all you did was love them as a person should be unconditionally- They took that love and turned it, black and blue, bloody and into pieces- Some hearts can’t be put back together once broken- The soul will not heal- The damage is done- The last breath is gone-
Sometimes things are forgotten returning a phone call, picking up something from the store and so on. But a person should not be on that list They are not something that can be replaced or picked up later on an errand. What you may have forgotten, could be a celebration you are not a part of no matter how many times you watch the video or look at the pictures that moment is lost. What you have forgotten could haunt you, the rest of your life, being unable to say goodbye, giving peace before they take their last breath. Telling them you love them, and they will never be forgotten. Don’t forget you see I know what is like to be FORGOTTEN.
There are those that run on the surface and just beneath, some are visible and some are kept hidden. Much like having a tattoo, some show them and others you would never know, because, they don’t have to answer questions if no one is aware. It’s those scars that run so deep and are forever inked in our hearts and souls. How can these kinds of scars every try to heal, if they are never shown love, kindness, what is right, wrong, good, evil and how to just express themselves without- another wound opening up. They say if you look deep into someone’s eyes you can see into their souls. I have seen- what looks likes bits and pieces and too much space missing, some are shards of glass taped together so that they will not be lost forever. Some have been sewn back together so much you can’t tell what or who it was- stitch on top of stitch. Scars on the surface can heal somewhat and fade thou they are constant reminders!
They said look passionate like your lovers. He laid his hand on my hip caressing it. My hand rest on his bare leg how I would love to take my fingernails run them up his thigh and grip in my hand what I know is growing under my arm.
They say CUT!!, that’s a wrap people, the magazine spread looks great- thanks everyone
I roll off the bed, give me lover a passionate kiss before I leave to get dressed I look in the mirror, 2 days ago, I don’t know if I could have made it through this shoot.
We were lovers, but he betrayed me thou he doesn’t know I know yet. But he will, I’m not the only one who felt his deceit, you don’t mess with the Family especially mine. I sit on my apartment balcony, enjoying a glass of wine and the beautiful night sky.
My cell phone chirps I look at the text message it says sweet dreams little one Oh, they will be sweet and pleasant now.
My betrayer is gone for good You don’t miss with daddy’s only little girl.
Sometimes you have to submerge yourself no matter how deep it is and the level will continue to rise. Things will change and you will no longer feel like you have to tread water in the river of life. You’ve survived it on your own and when and if you have to wade back in. Your stronger and wiser than before..
I carry this jar of hearts collected on the way they were given, never taken I must say. Some are big, some are small. Some are full, some are not. I see a heart along my way but it never comes close. I look and it tries to hide. After a while I stop and put down my jar and say little heart why are you so afraid of my jar? There is silence and then it says this is my mommy’s heart, I told her I would keep it and never give it away because I wouldn’t have anything left of her anymore. I wiped a tear away and picked up my jar and said come little one- your heart will never be taken as long as I am Guardian of this jar!